The Briar Patch

I'm done. Something I haven't said to too many people is I have seen a mental health professional a few times. For a couple things. The truth is sometimes talking to someone helps, a lot. I have this blog and I rant a lot. Quite often on meaningless shit. This time however I am just going to be honest on the shit that is really bugging me. No solutions, not much editing just the honest truth HOPING I will feel a bit better. First I am over Covid. Well honestly I am over 2020, there are a million memes about this year but Covid is what really was a kick in the teeth for me. See right now I SHOULD have a bag half packed. Real soon I should be on a plane to Heathrow airport. I won't say all my life but since high school, so a good 20 years I have wanted to go to Europe. I was supposed to this month. In fact my birthday was supposed to be in Venice. This is all gone, I wonder when transAtlantic travel will even be allowed back? I can see USA and Canada opening up way before cro...

Fun adventures in genealogy. I have been working on the family tree since this pandemic started. It is pretty interesting. I mean the first parts are easy. I can think back to my great grandparents but a few generations before that things get harder. What is real & what isn't, like I can follow one line that supposedly goes back to England where I come from Knights and Lords. The names and dates and such seem to line up BUT always hard to tell. On the other side it doesn't run nearly as long as many are native Americans and the history was never recorded. More head to Ireland and seem lost and others to Denmark. Some hard to verify, some pretty easy. The funny one, well to me is the loyalists and these ones I can verify. They are all over the internet. So a guy Named Solomon Austin seemed to be doing okay for himself back when America was 13 colonies. Then America said fuck you and went to war for their independence. Solomon said he would prefer to stay loyal and fought the...

So just watched the Aaron Hernadez doc on Netflix. WOW was that kinda fucked. Lets start with imagine he wasn't crazy and played for the Pats for years. How many more championships would they have? But lets look at his life. Was he doomed from day 1? His dad did kept him on the straight and narrow BUT at what cost? Did abuse fuck him up? Then we have his closeted homosexuality. That cannot be easy, flip side there are many closeted people and they don't all go around murdering people. I gotta say his mom really fucked him up. She starts sleeping with a new man right after his dad dies and his aunties ex on top of that? That has to mess with the head. So he basically starts hanging around aunt and bad crowd? This just seems like a bad mix. The fact college covered up possible crimes is terrible as well. I get the money end but there has to be some responsibility. Finally the NFL. I think this part isn't the most shocking. By the time a person hits the bigs they have learned ...

I wasn't going to do this. I was going to finish the blog that has been on my desktop for a few days, that was interrupted by Tiger King and being lazy BUT I feel I want to get it off my chest. So here will be a short rant on wrassling! it was going to be a couple lines in a random thoughts blog but nah after seeing what a single comment did to that "fandom" I feel the need to well, respond. Bit O background. Some wrestler, no idea who said maybe they shouldn't be performing right now. Tagged Vince Mcmahon in the tweet. Clown A goes off saying no Vince is the man who brought so many great events blah blah blah. I simply responded with "Wrestling isn't real." WOW I don't think I have ever stirred up so much shit online in my life. Let me be clear. Vince is a joke. Don King with better hair? Or worse? WWE is a joke as well. Having any event like that right now is dumb. When REAL that's right folks, REAL sports are cancelled why is some scripted...

So I give my wife a hard time for watching trash TV on the TLC Trash Learning Channel or whatever it is all the time. But this time was me, Covid and Tiger King weekend. I had another blog started but I gotta do this one first. While Joe Exotic is still all over peoples timelines on social media! I am not going to talk about the ENTIRE show, just the people......... And this is a quick one, sorry if the editing is rough. Also a ton of disjointed thoughts.... Joe Exotic, wow. I was going to save him for last but maybe he is crazy enough to get 2 paragraphs. Nice hair, he did steal the mullet Hulk Hogan should have to have a complete head of hair? But lets not be mean. I think some of the final clips, the archival footage show WAY back in the day he did want to do this for the right reason. Hell he even said they belong in the wild on other continents. Then the $$$ starts rolling in. IMO two things happened there, first he realized he could be a showman. One look at him and you know th...

SO, I had a story brewing for years. A mix of horror, which I would like to write more of and comics. Superhero comics. I wanted to do it in comic form but it seems anytime I start anything in that form it never gets finished. (Not that this actually will, hopefully it does but just saying) I wanted it in comic form so that it could be on going for one reason. If I am honest I have no real end, yet. More twists and turns as the story goes. So an ongoing series right? Like I have developed characters, but not exactly where they are headed. SO maybe that is ill prepared. BUT I also feel written books can be more descriptive and go deeper into story. I am at a loss for which is a better medium. Either way though I would have this random spiel opening it. This is a VERY ROUGH draft. I mean I will likely edit it a tiny bit, a couple times before it goes live but NO it isn't a finished draft. Cut me some slack. The second part is yes Covid is what is making me do it. Not inspiring the st...

I know what first world problems are, I can read them as I write these words. But FUCK you Covid 19. As of this writing the NHL is suspended. So winning that $600 or $700 that I was only a couple points out I would say is done. I bought tickets to the Chicago play here in the city. Well that is closed. Next week was supposed to be the Tool light show. World of science is closed. That's just my mini problems. My wifes' gym membership is on hold, which is awesome actually for them to do that! (As of this going live I think many gyms have now done that) I don't know they were supposed to, but I say kudos to the gym for doing that. (Even if I can't say which one) I have no confirmation yet BUT I am going to say both my Co-ed hockey and Mens league that I was supposed to be back in this year will be gone. There goes me getting back into shape. Currently I don't want to go for runs outside! All those are whiny issues, minor issues. The biggest fuck you from Covid is my Eu...